The Imposter Syndrome!

Meals have to be still prepared, even though you thought that you would take it easy, you have a hungry crowd to feed. The first week, I was an uber planner with all the meals, prepared everything, but as Friday came along, I felt wary of the home cooked meals, I craved going out with other people and having a casual chit chat and having a meal that I haven’t cooked. At the same time our lunch times kept pushing out from 12 pm to 1 pm and these days I probably dont care. And I worried within thinking of whether I am being a bad mother, bad wife or lets be honest my biggest fear of being a bad employee, for not working enough and not keeping the same hours. Do you feel the same way, I am really curious to know. And thats when I realized that I have been hit by the imposter syndrome. The feeling that you re not who are. Or more like you are not perceived as what you want to be perceived, because everything is that isn’t it, a perception after all. I never thought I would ever feel this but this is a reality. I felt like I wasn’t doing enough for my family, for my company who has employed me and for my viewers and readers who want to see more content, because when there is so much negativity happening in the world, why would what I do matter. I know as human beings and mostly as women, we have a habit of trying to keep everything together and trying to add a patch and while doing all of that we constantly judge us and criticize us. But is that what it is, or is it the fact that we are all human and are trying to cope with our feelings in different ways. If there are some of you who have a better grasp of this situation, I really want to know what your thoughts are.